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Hello people, its been a little while again.
I've managed to raise £20 for www.niemann-pick.org.uk/ but I'm not doing any more charity auctions for a little while, thank you for your help! :D

My heads been all over the place the last few weeks or so. I have so many ideas, crafts, drawings and digital paintings on the go but not one of them are going the way I'd like. Basically I have all these ideas that I just can't implement properly, its been frustrating. This does tend to happen sometimes, as my depression makes me want to give up (I won't) and the anxiety makes me extremely worried that I'll fail. But, I also have a lot of things I've finished. I'm just a bit worried about photo quality and spamming with pics of clay gardens, creatures and such.

On another note I have another hospital visit coming up (yay :/). I mentioned to a few of you last year that I had found a lump and had to have tests and such. Everything worked out fine, it was just a lot of stress and pain. Well, I have another one. In the same place. Which means I might have to have another needle and maybe more tests. Its also quite painful as its the same place as I had my biopsy last year. So ladies and gentlemen, remember to check yourself regularly. I know its not breast cancer awareness month anymore, but that doesn't mean you should not be aware. (and yes, breast cancer affects both men and women, so always tell your doctor any changes regardless of your gender). I feel like I should write this as I've been (and am currently going) through it, any changes does not immediately mean you have cancer. You could have another issue (like me).

Also an old face in my life just forced me to have a difficult conversation with my son. To put it into perspective, there was this guy in school that was... unnerving, who I dated for a week or two. I dated him because all my friends told me I was weird for not being interested in boys and my family telling me I was just a late bloomer. I was unhappy in all my past relationships, becuase I have never, ever needed someone to validate my existence. To me, dating was like saying I only exist to breed. I'm only interesting as a person because one day I'll develop breasts. So this boy from school sexually assaulted me when we were 14. The only people I've told exactly what happened that day were my closest friends. He's always seemed off somehow. I saw him again today. When I'm walking with a man and he sees me he'll stay away. Today it was just me or my son. Because he has shown violent tendencies in the past its not so easy to slip away from him and to keep him from reacting in an unknown way I talked about old friends at school (yes, he was in my social circle. One of my favorite people is his sister). I was walking nans beagle, who decided he did not like this man and was on edge for a while. My son, being the sweet boy he is, inanely talked about Lego as I tried to keep space between us and this man. He said that he 'knew' i was happy when I was with him, that the reason my relationships don't work out is because I am not with him. When I told him that I'm not interested in a relationship (I find both men and women attractive, making me bisexual?? yet I do not want a relationship or sex, so I'm asexual??? I have no idea lol) he also blamed that on not being with him. Then asked my son if he'd like a brother or sister. My boy did not reply and I simply said he would not be getting one, that I'm not having more kids. All the while he kept taking little steps closer to us. I tried to keep him calm by asking about his brothers (one learnt some... bad behavior from him. The other was an awesome guy) He told my 8 year old son that he had threatened a good friend of mine for saying his handwriting was messy. In detail. Gory detail. When we got away from him, trying to keep my voice from shaking I told my son that I remembered that act of violence, but it was not for messy handwriting. It was because my good friend is gay and this guy attacked him because of that. My nan knows how much this guy freaks me out and asked why it took me so long to get back. Its very hard to explain to nan and my 8 year old son that I was scared this man would do something and put my son and myself at risk. I'm also pretty sure he didn't touch me because my son was there. In the past when I've seen him when on my own he immediately touches me. He freaked me out so much that during a charity fete our community association was holding I freaked out after he cornered me by a tree and I went home, when I'd got away from him. When I told the lady who ran it why she asked for a different group to come in his place (he was only there because he was a part of this group). Its not just me that is creeped out by him. He once told my awesome, amazing friend that she was only a lesbian becuase she hadn't been with the right man, then proceeded to touch her inappropriately. In fact I've heard a lot of stories like that about him. As I've said I only dated him for a short while and it was a very unpleasant experience. Contrary to whatever he thinks my first love happened when I was fifteen and lasted for nearly four years, we even got engaged. I still love that guy, but more in a long time friend way now lol. But my issues with relationships are because I do not want or need one.

I don't know. I'm just kinda stressed and anxious about it all. And suffering from mastalgia is not fun -.-
Tiny box tim dress up For Charity -Ended by miayan
Tiny box tim dress up For Charity -Ended
This might be the last charity auction I'll do at the moment as I have some stuff going on at home.
Like my previous Tiny box Tims, these are made from a lightweight clay, painted and glossed for protection.
1) Christmas Tim (the largest of the 7 he measures approx 3cm)
2) Bedtime Tim (approx 2cm)
3) Blanket Tim (approx 2cm)
4) Pirate Tim (approx 2 cm)
5) Snowball Tim (approx 2cm)
6) 'For you' Tim (approx 2 cm)
7) Dragon Tim (approx 2cm)
Character belongs to Markiplier, character design by Lixian. I will not sell them for personal funds, only ever for charity.

All money raised will go to neimann-pick www.niemann-pick.org.uk/
Delivery is free. Bidding starts at £1 each, please comment with your bid if you are interested. This auction will end on the 31st (Halloween).
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Aqua comp redesign by miayan
Aqua comp redesign
A re-design of fav.me/d7fg0m8 for this competition darkness35wolf.deviantart.com/…
I have been really struggling with getting my hands to follow what my brain is telling them the last month or two, so it has taken me a lot longer to draw than ever.

Anyway, as mentioned above this is a re-design of Aqua. Above his dorsal fin he has a small orb (similar to a fox fire) made entirely of water, it follows him wherever he goes and is full of sea creatures. Both the orb and the blue stripes running down his body are constantly moving, mimicking the flow of the sea.
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Hello people, its been a little while again.
I've managed to raise £20 for www.niemann-pick.org.uk/ but I'm not doing any more charity auctions for a little while, thank you for your help! :D

My heads been all over the place the last few weeks or so. I have so many ideas, crafts, drawings and digital paintings on the go but not one of them are going the way I'd like. Basically I have all these ideas that I just can't implement properly, its been frustrating. This does tend to happen sometimes, as my depression makes me want to give up (I won't) and the anxiety makes me extremely worried that I'll fail. But, I also have a lot of things I've finished. I'm just a bit worried about photo quality and spamming with pics of clay gardens, creatures and such.

On another note I have another hospital visit coming up (yay :/). I mentioned to a few of you last year that I had found a lump and had to have tests and such. Everything worked out fine, it was just a lot of stress and pain. Well, I have another one. In the same place. Which means I might have to have another needle and maybe more tests. Its also quite painful as its the same place as I had my biopsy last year. So ladies and gentlemen, remember to check yourself regularly. I know its not breast cancer awareness month anymore, but that doesn't mean you should not be aware. (and yes, breast cancer affects both men and women, so always tell your doctor any changes regardless of your gender). I feel like I should write this as I've been (and am currently going) through it, any changes does not immediately mean you have cancer. You could have another issue (like me).

Also an old face in my life just forced me to have a difficult conversation with my son. To put it into perspective, there was this guy in school that was... unnerving, who I dated for a week or two. I dated him because all my friends told me I was weird for not being interested in boys and my family telling me I was just a late bloomer. I was unhappy in all my past relationships, becuase I have never, ever needed someone to validate my existence. To me, dating was like saying I only exist to breed. I'm only interesting as a person because one day I'll develop breasts. So this boy from school sexually assaulted me when we were 14. The only people I've told exactly what happened that day were my closest friends. He's always seemed off somehow. I saw him again today. When I'm walking with a man and he sees me he'll stay away. Today it was just me or my son. Because he has shown violent tendencies in the past its not so easy to slip away from him and to keep him from reacting in an unknown way I talked about old friends at school (yes, he was in my social circle. One of my favorite people is his sister). I was walking nans beagle, who decided he did not like this man and was on edge for a while. My son, being the sweet boy he is, inanely talked about Lego as I tried to keep space between us and this man. He said that he 'knew' i was happy when I was with him, that the reason my relationships don't work out is because I am not with him. When I told him that I'm not interested in a relationship (I find both men and women attractive, making me bisexual?? yet I do not want a relationship or sex, so I'm asexual??? I have no idea lol) he also blamed that on not being with him. Then asked my son if he'd like a brother or sister. My boy did not reply and I simply said he would not be getting one, that I'm not having more kids. All the while he kept taking little steps closer to us. I tried to keep him calm by asking about his brothers (one learnt some... bad behavior from him. The other was an awesome guy) He told my 8 year old son that he had threatened a good friend of mine for saying his handwriting was messy. In detail. Gory detail. When we got away from him, trying to keep my voice from shaking I told my son that I remembered that act of violence, but it was not for messy handwriting. It was because my good friend is gay and this guy attacked him because of that. My nan knows how much this guy freaks me out and asked why it took me so long to get back. Its very hard to explain to nan and my 8 year old son that I was scared this man would do something and put my son and myself at risk. I'm also pretty sure he didn't touch me because my son was there. In the past when I've seen him when on my own he immediately touches me. He freaked me out so much that during a charity fete our community association was holding I freaked out after he cornered me by a tree and I went home, when I'd got away from him. When I told the lady who ran it why she asked for a different group to come in his place (he was only there because he was a part of this group). Its not just me that is creeped out by him. He once told my awesome, amazing friend that she was only a lesbian becuase she hadn't been with the right man, then proceeded to touch her inappropriately. In fact I've heard a lot of stories like that about him. As I've said I only dated him for a short while and it was a very unpleasant experience. Contrary to whatever he thinks my first love happened when I was fifteen and lasted for nearly four years, we even got engaged. I still love that guy, but more in a long time friend way now lol. But my issues with relationships are because I do not want or need one.

I don't know. I'm just kinda stressed and anxious about it all. And suffering from mastalgia is not fun -.-

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I'm a 27 year old girl from Somerset, UK.
I love a lot of things and sometimes its hard to say which animals I prefer. But my top favorite (real) animal has to be an Orca. I really love birds too, especially raptors, as such I prefer gryphons (or griffins if you prefer, both are correct) to dragons.
I love to make things, even if they don't turn out quite how I planned them to.
In RL i am a loner and a bit of a recluse. I prefer to be by myself than surrounded by people. I also prefer it to be outside lost in the woods or trekking across fields with the dogs than being around people.
I am a highly anxious person who laughs a lot and stares at the clouds or distant landscapes for inspiration. I watch a lot of YouTube videos and I'm a huge fan of Markiplier, I am also a fan of manga and anime. Though usually its ones others haven't heard of or have a smaller fan base. I don't always like what is considered 'mainstream' like Pokemon, Naruto, My little pony and the like, although I can understand others love for these shows as I'm the same with mine ^^
I don't like judging people about anything, and I'll always try to support any of you if you need it. However, I suffer from mental illness and (although I am getting help and I'm on medication for it) I can often become quiet online. But 90% of the time I'm lurking and stalking you all muhahahaha!! ahem... anyway...
I have few enemies in RL, but I also have few friends. If I call you a friend, then I really do care about you, I just have... odd ways of showing it sometimes.
I love my family more than anything, RL sisters are :iconcandyguts: and :iconinjectvibrancy:
Online i find it easier to talk to people and love looking at all of your art here.

If i don't reply to you, please don't think I'm ignoring you, I'm either busy or unsure of what to say, more often I'm just unsure.

Also sorry if i thank you for faving any of my pictures more than once or not at all, I tend to get confused about where I've been on here. XD

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Fluffypuppy77 Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
YOU! You asked for the Darkrai!!! I FOUND YOU!!!
I have to draw it still but I will do it!
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miayan Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
*scrolling through DA comments, saw I FOUND YOU!!! became scared O.O*
 To be honest I'd forgotten about that (a lot has been going on lol) so no rush. XD
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Fluffypuppy77 Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No rush on my end either

I had some how deleted your comment, and was scared I would never know who asked!^^
Im glad I went through my gallery
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miayan Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hahaha, these things happen ^^ but its finding people again when that happens that's annoying, I've done it too. :P
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VisionCrow Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2014   Interface Designer
I'll reply back at you later, but in the meanwhile, have a look at this:

safe.met.police.uk/bullying/co…

I found it has quite a lot of useful information for you and your son. I believe that your loved ones need not to suffer and there is something which can be done.
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miayan Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks, that looks really helpful :3
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Lenore49 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2014
Thank you for the fav and the watch. Most honored.
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miayan Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome ^^
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HendrikHermans Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for faving and the watch !
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